Hi again,
Theres some exciting stuff happening this week for me, for one I think after 3 months of being in an editing haze and completely lost I finally found something I love and I pray you all LOVE it as much as I do!! (I’m very indecisive but I think this one is gonna stick around hehe) Another exciting thing is I found a new favorite pair of overalls for less than $50! Yesss! You’ll see me wearing these a few time this fall, so bear with me! haha
What I really liked about these was that they were more form fitting than my previous ones. The booty looks good, they’re comfortable and the shape of them are just adorable! Initially I wanted to wear them with a thick chunky sweater I have, however on the morning of shooting it was 85 degrees…were in mid October yet here in good ol’ LA its summer all year long. So, instead I grabbed an older top but still a favorite. The off shoulder added the feminine touch I was looking for in this all black outfit, plus the lace on the sleeves just makes me swoon.
Now onto the third part of my good news, this may be a little more personal than I usually get on here but I believe that if someone were to read this that really needs it, than that’s who this is for. And for the rest of you, Im opening up in hopes that you get to know the real me. For almost a year now, Ive struggled very much with loving myself..I don’t want to call it depression but at times that’s how I would feel. I wouldn’t see my friends, Id flake out on plans, Id always be home, I stopped everything I loved and made excuses for it. My close friends, family and even colleagues would ask me why I looked so sad or ask me if I had something on my mind…and time after time I didn’t have an answer. Then, I would go online and I would portray someone so happy, yet inside I felt like a fake. It was rough, I wasn’t really sure why I was feeling this way. But as silly as this may seem it’s now been almost three weeks where not one negative thought brings me down. When I went to Lake Tahoe I found a new part of me, I told you guys this on the post and almost every day I remind myself of that girl I found and how much I love her. Instead of pointing out my own flaws, because God knows I am my biggest critic, I replace that thought with a positive note! In moments where I find myself saying “ugh I feel fat, or my gosh..look at this face” I truly stop myself and repeat a positive comment to myself. I reply with “well Lex, put down the hot Cheetos and pick up an apple, or if you don’t want breakouts lets invest in some really good face mask and moisturizer.” You guys….it works! Im not joking! I call it investing in myself. For a long time, I was worried about making sure everyone around me was happy and I worried about myself last, often times not doing anything for me. Like what the eff right?! Im 25 years young, this is my life! My life is beautiful, it’s busy, but I wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world.
Phew, lets shake off that heaviness with just a light reminder to remember that YOU are beautiful. Write down what you love about yourself, for me? Even if it’s just 3 things, if you’re brave write it down on the comments below because I would love to be inspired by you all. Women need to love other women, that’s another thing Ive come to realize. Recently, Ive had the chance to share my love for content creating with Miss beauty, Taelor ! We can hangout for hours, talking about the latest trends, changing in our car while watching out for weirdos, helping one another with 159870 photos hoping to get 5 that we each like and letting one another know when we look FIYAAA! haha! We all need a friend like this and Im glad to have added her to my small group of gal pals I call my amigas <3
What’d you think of that post? I hope you got inspired, I hope you saw a different but more real side of me, and that I made you chuckle a bit because we can always use a little laughter in our lives. Ive linked all the items Im wearing below, the top was an older one from Tobi but I found an almost exact one at a much better price. Always looking out for π
I think you should continue doing what you love, do not let anything or anyone bring you down. Keep your hopes, dreams, wishes going until you reach them. Thank you for sharing your struggles, you are beautiful inside and out.
Love the outfit πππΌππΌ