A quarter of the year left, where do you stand?

Alexis Alcala wearing fASHION Nova talking about her past goals for 2018 and where she stands with them in 2019

Somehow we are in the second week of October, the year is almost to an end, and soon we will be in 2020! Today, I stumbled upon a list of 5 goals I had set for myself at the beginning of the year and to my surprise, I had in some capacity accomplished them all. I say to my surprise because in recent years I was the Queen of setting goals in January and somehow forgetting them all by March. 2018 was one of my roughest years to date, physically I was in the worst shape of my life, mentally I was depressed and spiritually I felt alone. The worst part of it all was that very little people knew what was going on internally, for an entire year I was bottling up emotions and experiences and it was truly killing me inside. I am being completely raw and honest because this has a happy ending, and I know that I wouldn’t be where I am today if I hadn’t gone through that rough patch. Going into 2019 I found a light in life that helped me overcome all of what I was going through. That light was found on a day I decided to yelp my nearest church, and on a Sunday morning, I went to a service alone, ashamed because I hadn’t really prayed in what seemed years. I remember sitting at the top of the amphitheater, and listening to this pastor give his sermon. I felt as if he was talking directly to me, I felt chills the entire service and at the end, we were dismissed by a song that brought me to my knees as I cried uncontrollably. At that moment, for the first time in my life, I FELT God, He was there, He was holding me and calling me to Him. After that day I made my relationship with Jesus my number 1 priority.

Alexis Alcala wearing fASHION Nova talking about her past goals for 2018 and where she stands with them in 2019

My goal at the beginning of the year said this;

“..I want to work on my relationship with Jesus. With Him, I am learning to forgive those who have hurt me, and I am seeing changes within myself I didn’t think I was capable of changing. I am slowly becoming the woman I have always wanted to be.”

Reading that brings a smile to my face because I am now, so spiritually filled with love, knowing that I am never actually alone. I have truly forgiven those who have hurt me in the past. I have forgiven myself for mistakes I did, and I have changed my perspective in life to an overall positive outlook, that I owe to finding God. Before I continue, I must be clear that all of that did not happen overnight, in fact, it took all of 2019 for me to be in the place I am now. Some days were easier than others, and maybe there were some weeks where I completely forgot to even stop for a moment to pray. However, throughout the year I would always come back to Him. Every good thing that has happened to me this year, I stop and thank Him. Every bad thing that has happened, I know deep inside that it was something that was meant to happen. So I try to find the meaning and purpose behind it and try and learn from it instead of being upset. I feel so spiritually connected, and am excited to grow on this path throughout my life moving forward.

This post was a little longer than usual, but it was important to me to open up on this chapter of my life before I share the rest of my goals with you. I truly believe that I am becoming the woman I have always wanted to be, and I now know that I couldn’t do this alone. I hope that if you’re reading this you feel inspired to go back and review the goals you set in January for yourself. If you’re a little behind, don’t be discouraged, the year isn’t over and it’s never too late to work on yourself.

Outfit details; I’m wearing a romper from Fashion Nova, you can shop it here. I fell in love with the color & sheer sleeves, it’s classy yet sexy and those are some of my two favorite combinations. The front is a little low cut so I wore a lace nude bra underneath for a little peek a boo action. I’d totally wear this out for date night or a fun holiday party! I am wearing an XS but to be honest I would go for a Small next time since the back was a little cheeky. haha


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